This decision was particularly difficult for me. 

But at the end of the day I had to do what was best for both of us. 

Sigh… 

There is no perfect solution. 

But I chose the lesser of two evils. 

Perhaps one day you will understand. 

Whatever it is, I had unforgettable memories and unspeakable joy :). 

you are probably not reading this… but even though this 1 year is gonna be tough we will make it. i know this. sometimes i feel like a burden to you. and… im not sure what i can do to make things right. God, pls teach me and show me what to do. Im willing to love u with all my heart even though u may break it if i gave it to you. because isnt that what love is about? to give all of you despite outcomes u may not desire or expect. it doesnt matter now…. my heart is heavy. and im lonely in the darkness.. naked and exposed.

cut off.
Ignorance is powerful.
we love what we love,
We hate what we hate,
We choose what we choose.

Is there nothing I can do?

I lost my sight,
To blind to follow the brightest star that lay right before me in the darkness of the sky.

I took the wrong trail,
The wide road led me to a place of living destruction.

It left me tangled.
It left me shaken.

But because I had love i could see again. Because I had love, I could stand again.

I watched the world along the longest shores of the earth.
There, I layed in between the disaster beach of Sydney and Perth.
I watched the sunrise to sunset,
The drips of water dripping from the driest oceans off the lily pads.

From dawn to dusk, I layed.
From twilight to the never ending days, I prayed.
War and violence came to no end.
Fear gripped the people’s heart till nobody made a stand.

All hope seemed lost,The world paid the cost.
Hiding ourselves in the darkest caves,
While the sky were filled with raids.
Black smoke rose into the air all around,
Crying and silence was the only sound.
There were no songs sung.No songs but one.

” Home is behind,The world ahead.And there are many paths to tread.
Through shadow,To the edge of night.Until stars are all alight.
Mist and shadow,Cloud and shade.All shall fade.All shall fade… “

20 days left, to my last war cry.

20 days left… before an army so vast that the very mention of them strikes fear into hearts of lives.

20 days left… before the soldiers march..

March to face the greatest enemy since Alexander the great was dead.

March to face… empty pieces of paper…

Our pens striking the empty blanks down.

Filling them with the blood of our hearts.

Our ruler straightening the lines of our own greatest warriors.

Our minds protecting us as we get shot by each of the darting questions thrown at us in the shape of spears.

Our God, as our saviour, weapon, and greatest defender..

Stands for all.

As king, he commands us forward as we march to victory.

There was something in life that I couldn’t see, 
There was an empty hole inside of me
I saw life as just a passing breeze
And it can’t be compared to what you gave to me

My heart dances for you,
My heart sings for you,
My heart is ready for a brand new start
Yea, my heart belongs to you

It used to be just the world and me
But now life is more than just a sweet melody
I can now dance without a music piece
But only because you are my sweet memories

How can a man live without love?…

As I walked up to the altar of my God, 
There to embrace the love we have forgot.
As forgiveness seeps right into my heart,
It turns to a love, to the people we impart.

As Your presence overwhelms my soul,
It becomes my strength to withstand the bitter cold.

But Lord, it’s not enough for me.
I want more, Your passion is what I need.

So set my heart ablaze,
So all may hear Your name.
May the truth of Your word spread like fire.
Your passion is what I need.
Compassion is what we seek.
To pass on the passion for Your name.

Your loving arms bring us through the storms, 
You are our light guiding us, keeping us from wrong.
Your endless mercy leads us home, 
Our hearts are secure in You and You alone.

We wanna reach out, We wanna show love
We know we can’t do it on our own strength 
So we pray…

There will come a time where man from the east and the west, the north and the south will fall.
There will come a time where shattered shields will fall to the ground out of fear and a evil man crowned.

BUT I SAY IT IS NOT THIS DAY. THIS DAY WE FIGHT!!!!!!!!!